I really don’t know what I wanna write right now.
My thoughts are screaming for the love I have for my cat. I don’t know why but I just wanna say something about my cat. He’s always missing whenever I get home.
Then suddenly he will appear and meow out loud until I talked to him and pet him.
The only thing I feel right now and can be sure of what it is, is how great and wide the love I have for my cat, Felix.
Whenever I hear a super soft meow and I already assumed that it’s him outside our house, jumping his way through the tree beside our window. I always assume that it’s him even if that meow came from another cat, or the sound came from another thing.
Right now, no one knows how I love my cat. They say that i’m silly, they say that i’m gross because I kiss my cat even if he’s so dirty.
It never crossed my mind to think that I would never kiss him, that I would never hug him because of the reason that he is dirty and any other reason.
And I think that’s LOVE for me.
LOVE is never thinking of how bad he smells, how dirty he is when he gets home, how much he’s changed a lot when you saw each other after a long time, but LOVE is having that same feeling over and over again, the feeling that you would always wanna be with him and great him the warmest hello and to express the longing you had when you’re away from him. No matter what happens. No matter how many things have changed. No matter how long he’s been gone without coming home to you, you’d still want him. You’d still smile and say “I love you so much that’s why I waited for you.” Love is trusting him that he will come back even if he doesn’t. That hope doesn’t just go away. That hope makes the love feel alive.
Even if my cat doesn’t return for how many days, i’d still think that he’s out there, living the life he deserved, finding himself through the tall grass, no matter how far he wander, I know my cat will always remember how much I loved him. How much I have welcomed him always. How much I am willing to sacrifice everything just to be with him for a little longer. Even if I know that he will again disappear in the morning.
I know he will come back. I trust him that he will.
I LOVE MY CAT.